I can’t even begin to explain to all that my heart is experiencing. Joy, excitement, fear, anticipation, sadness, love and longing have created within me a tangled web of beauty.
The past few weeks have been full of the intense swirl of the Holy Spirit molding, shaping and preparing me for many things. My heart is so ready to be in Africa, but God still has me here for a few more weeks. He more to show me, and more for me to show others. The preparation process has been a beautiful one.
When we were accepted to participate in the Harvest School of Missions at Iris Ministries in Mozambique we were given access to a group in which we can get to know other people from all over the world who will be participating. It has just been such a huge blessing to hear so many stories of God’s provision, all over the world. It has also been fun to make connections with people that are so similar. I feel as if I have such beautiful friendships with these people already!
One of the girls that I have been more connected with, Emily, has been such a tremendous blessing to me already. I just love her so much, and I haven’t even met her. She is from Mississippi and absolutely crazy about Jesus. We are, without a doubt, Spirit twins, and I absolutely love it. She is more than precious and I can’t wait to spend an entire summer with her in Africa!
As I have been talking with people all over the world as well as those in my everyday life, I have been learning far more than I ever imagined. God really places all the right people in your life at the perfect time. It seems that no matter what my journey or my struggles happen to be, there are always loving friends surrounding me to help me climb to the next level.
The most recent focus in my life has been learning the Father’s heart. He has been cultivating my trust in Him as a good good Father. Because of family history, this has been an extremely rough season for me. I have experienced every attempt of the enemy to destroy the Father’s work in me.
Little does the enemy know, that I am a victorious daughter of the Most High King.
Oh, and my brothers and sisters are fighting for me, too.
Oh, and His river rushes to the lowest place.
I’m pretty certain that no attack of the enemy can harm me. Thanks, Jesus. Every time the darkness comes against me, God takes me deeper in His love to protect His daughter from harm.
In addition to these things, I received some physical healing while at IHOP, Kansas City a few weeks ago.
I have struggle with a stomach problem for several months, and experienced much pain that put me in the hospital multiple times. This pain even led to the removal of my gallbladder.
Let me assure you that physical illness is in no way God’s heart for us.
While in the prayer room at IHOP, I participated in the healing ministry. Before they prayed for me they asked me to take time to ask God if there were people that I needed to forgive. Let me just tell you, that took quite some time. The list was not short. I felt such a release. It was as if there had been shackles on my wrists, holding me down, dragging behind me. They were completely lifted. Thank you, Jesus.
As they prayed for me, I felt an intense warmth in my abdomen. I could barely handle the immense heat I was feeling. When I asked the Lord what it meant, he said, “Just eat some rice, and you will see. You’ll see that you are healed. It’s true.” Because rice is the one thing that has given me the most stomach pain throughout the past few months, I immediately knew it was true.
I went to dinner with my roommate, Maggie, and her boyfriend. During dinner I mentioned what God had done, and told them I had to eat rice to bring glory to God. A few hours later I still had no pain!!! To God be the glory!!!!
He loves to provide. He loves to heal. He loves to comfort. He loves to hold. He loves to whisper. He loves to shield. He loves to love.
My life is a testimony of this goodness.