I literally cannot believe I am in the third trimester of my pregnancy.
Well, I can, because I am starting to really feel it… And if I look down I see the growing baby bump that I can no longer suck in and hide.
But seriously, I feel like I just found out I was pregnant yesterday, and now there’s a seriously lively little girl moving around in me that I get to snuggle endlessly.
It’s crazy for me to think about her life, her sweet face, her personality, and everything in between- and long for those experiences- while absolutely loving every single moment of having her so close to me and so safe and sound.
It’s a mixed bag of emotions, for sure, but I think that’s pretty much the best way I can describe the last week as a whole. Everything feels so much more real, so much closer, so much scarier, and so much more exciting at the same time.
It’s interesting.. I feel like not much has really changed, but at the same time everything has changed. I never want to share my experience in a “this is what all women experience” sort of way, but for what it’s worth- here is what I am experiencing at 28 weeks.
- Morning sickness has returned for me- and has no mercy. I had no idea that would actually happen, despite many women telling me that it was totally possible and it happened to them. I seriously pray for every pregnant woman that she never deals with morning sickness. I actually had a friend tell me the other day that she has breezed through her first trimester with no sickness, and I wasn’t even jealous- I just thanked God for her, because it is no fun.
- Back pain is very real for me. I did hurt my back 3 weeks ago, but I also think the growing bump is just putting more stress on my back than I imagined it would. I find that I get more uncomfortable (and much faster) than I used to- but like all things with pregnancy, I am managing!
- This one is probably not one that you hear often, but I feel like I am getting stronger. Blame it on the weather, or blame it on my stubbornness, but I am running harder and faster than I have in weeks and I am absolutely loving it. I am also running more stairs, which I feel like is really strengthening my legs. One thing my doctor mentioned to me is that many women don’t realize how much they will use the muscles in their legs during labor- so I am trying to take that into consideration and just develop strength all over. I also really don’t think you can build endurance in a day, so every single workout for me is an opportunity to press in and build endurance.
- Emotions, emotions, emotions! I am scared, anxious, frustrated, excited, overwhelmed- you name it. I am amazed at the miracle of life inside me, and terrified of it at the same time. It’s radical just how much I love her already, and she isn’t even here yet. Somehow that does not stop me from falling more and more in love with her every day. I read to her, talk to her, and sing to her all the time. I tell her just how excited I am to meet her, and then I panic because I realize that soon there will be a day when she is exposed to the outside world- and that terrifies me. Daniel and I talked over dinner last night about how we want to protect her- from so many things. At the same time, we want her to experience life to the fullest. We have officially become “those parents.”
The one other change I have experienced I want to save for another post- because it’s that big and there’s that much to say about it.. so you will just have to stay tuned!
For now- here’s our sweet little Sadie Rae at 28 weeks!