“The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”
Many times in our lives we being ourselves to question the impact we have on others. We wonder if it is good or bad, or if we will ever truly know. For the most part, we never truly know. Sometimes, however, God gives us little glimpses of that in order to propel us further in His love.
A few weeks ago I walked into the Department of Philosophy at the University of Colorado at Boulder. Upon entering I immediately entered into conversation with young man and woman. As I was attempting to discuss classes with the young man, the young woman noticed my Alabama accent and asked me where I was from. When I told her I was from Alabama she asked me what brought me to Colorado. I responded in my typical manner, “Do you want the short answer or the honest answer.” She, of course, wanted the honest answer. I knew my answer could spark either something very negative or something neutral. I didn’t expect a positive response, as I was not only in Boulder, but in the Philosophy Department of a very liberal university.
The truth I shared with her is that I am radical, wasted, laid-down lover of my beloved, Jesus Christ.
I told her that the Holy Spirit told me to come and I packed my things and drove across the country without knowing a single person. I told her that the Lord used CCU to bring me to Colorado, but did not bring to Colorado for CCU. Much to my surprise, I looked to eyes to find her crying. I was uncertain of her response, by the Spirit told me it was good. After a few seconds later she asked, “are you prophetic?”
“Um, yes,” I responded. At this point I was more in shock that she didn’t reject me than the fact that she was crying. She began explaining to me how I was a breath of fresh air and that she was so overwhelmed with the Lord’s love for her and how He showed that in bringing me to that office at that time. She informed me that she had been in the philosophy department at CU for three years, knew everyone in the department, and was the only one walking with the Lord. She then asked, “do you speak in tongues?”
“Shooby Dooby” was my incredulous response. I then told her about my journey in the Spirit and how Holy Spirit is literally directing my every step. I spoke love and strength over her life, and asked her if we could keep in touch via facebook. Because she did not have facebook, she took my email address and said she would keep in touch with me.
I thanked the Lord tremendously and asked Him to maintain the connection between if it was His will, since I had no way of connecting with her on my own. Several weeks passed, I told a few people the story, and from that point I did not hear from her. It was a very sweet encounter, but I almost forgot about it completely as weeks passed and I did not hear from her.
I woke up this morning with thoughts of only wanting to stay in bed all day. With absolutely no desire to do anything, the need to go to work forced me out of my cave. I stumbled to my computer to check my email to see if I had received anything from my manager. Upon checking my email, I discovered a message from someone at the Department of Philosophy, CU-Boulder. As I am not a student there, I almost discarded the message in order to clear my inbox. Just as I was about to press delete, I felt the Holy Spirit saying “open it, Laura.” Because I am not one to ignore the Holy Spirit, I opened the message.
It was an email from a girl named Mia- the same girl I met in the Department of Philosophy. She began by reminding me who she was and letting me know she would not be offended if I did not remember her. She continued to tell me about her experience in meeting me that random day.
She saw me running in a green field where there was bright sunshine that made everything glow in a golden hue. I was sparkling with gold glitter and my arms were outstretched towards the sun, almost as if I was flying. I was surrounded by fresh air that moved all around me and I moved with the wind. The best part was this: She literally felt wind when I walked in the room and anytime I moved while I was standing next to her.
She then told me that she has been praying for me consistently since that encounter. She the Lord has been speaking to her about me. What she heard from Him was this: I am His Spirit-Bearer. Wow. Seriously? God told a random girl I am His Spirit-Bearer? I was already overwhelmed by this alone, but she continued to tell me more of what she heard. He told her I catch the Holy Spirit wind more than others and that when I walk into a room people cannot help but feel the Holy Spirit. Wow. I was completely humbled by this expression of God’s love, that He would have me impact someone in such a sweet way without even knowing it, and continue to speak to that person about me.
The Lord told her that I will release the Holy Spirit everywhere I go and breath fresh air into the lives of those around me. She then thanked for coming in that day and told me it was an honor, not to know me, but to know Christ through me.
I am so honored that God would love me enough to give me a small glimpse of the impact my relationship with Him has had on someone. I really been seeking to walk in humility and not prove myself. How sweet of God to reward me for my faithfulness in that discipline.
I asked the Lord about this, and He said that I did not do something beautiful, but that He did something beautiful through me. He used me to bring glory to His own name. How sweet, how precious to be a part of that. Thank you, God.
He will do the same for you. Everywhere you go and in everything you do, you will have an impact on those around you. Be patient, sweet one, for He will reward you for your faithfulness. He will give you a glimpse of His glory and it will propel you further into His love. You won’t know which direction you are being propelled, but it will be well worth it.