I do not walk in the spirit of poverty. I do not walk in the spirit of poverty. I do not walk in the spirit of poverty.
My heritage is not my inheritance. My heritage is not my inheritance. My heritage is not my inheritance.
I live in the abundance of the Kingdom. I live in the abundance of the Kingdom. I live in the abundance of the Kingdom.
-HE PROVIDES FAR AND WIDE ABOVE EVERY NEED-
Welcome to my thought process over the past few days. Walking in the truth of His provision, I have discovered, it most often a choice we have to make. I believe that sometimes we think there is a moment when we just get it- we know the truth and we walk in it. In my life, I have definitely found that there will always be things in the flesh that counter what God tells us, and we have to make the decision to believe the truth over the lies.
The enemy would love to tell me that my heritage is my inheritance. He likes to tell me that I will forever live in poverty, because that is what I raised to believe. He tells me that if there is enough for me, it will only be enough to get by. He tells me to stop expecting great things, because great things are not for me. They are for great people.
I have spent the majority of my life believing his silly lies. I have feared that I will miss my destiny due to lack of provision. I have spent hours upon hours worrying about where I will get the money to survive in the present. And if I can’t even “get by” in the present, how will I ever expect greatness and abundance in the future?
Until one day…
God said, “Laura, do you really think I would tell you to go somewhere and not provide?”
In this moment, I realized I was doubting the very character of God. I was telling Him how I loved Him and would do anything or go anywhere for Him. I could do all of that, but I couldn’t trust Him to provide for me. I was too busy worrying about missing the purpose and destiny He set before me to even think about asking Him to provide for those things.
Asking has never been easy. I was not allowed to ask for things for most of my life. If I did ask, the answer was always, “we’ll see.” In case you didn’t know, that actually meant, “no.”
So when I took my focus away from the avoidance of asking, I found myself asking for the smallest amount possible, in the most feeble manner. I would ask, “Lord is it at all possible that you would be able to provide this? Even some of it would help. If not, I totally understand.” I would tell God that I knew my needs were not important, but I really wanted those things.
In reality, those things were not just wants, they were needs. And they were of great importance. And God cares about those things.
He would care about them even if they were wants and they only mattered to me.
I realized this in a sweet conversation with God. During a conversation over coffee with a good friend, she told me that God had asked her if she was able to believe Him for everything in one check. After I left, I was think about that and said to myself, “I wonder what I would do if God asked me that.”
Needless to say, God knows every thought.
He immediately said, “Laura, would you believe me to give you everything in one check if I told you to?” When it took me over an hour to say yes, I realized that I was truly walking in the Spirit of poverty. If my good provider tells me to believe Him for everything, and I still doubt for any reason at all, I am letting the spirit of poverty and past circumstances control my life.
I spent a large amount of time pondering this, and the only consistent conclusion I developed was that it is always a choice. I have to make the decision each day to believe in the provision of my good good Father.
I have to proclaim my inheritance and believe that it is for now. It is not something I have to wait for. God wants me to live in that abundance, right now, in the present.
So, here’s to freedom from the spirit of poverty:
God loves to provide far and wide above every need in my life. He also thoroughly enjoys providing for the things that my heart desires, even if they are not physical needs. He loves to see me prosper. He loves to bless me in abundance so that I can bless others. He is even more excited about my purpose than I am. He is beaming with joy each time He gives to me.
GOD WANTS ME TO GO TO AFRICA!
HE LOVES PROVIDING FOR ME TO GO!!
HE IS EXCITED TO MOVE IN ME AND WATCH ME GROW!!!
HE WOULD NOT CALL ME THERE, AND FAIL TO PROVIDE!!!!
HE IS A GOOD, GOOD, GOOD, FATHER!!!!!