I am Pro-Life, and I am proud of it.
For those of you who clicked on this link in hopes of a political debate, this post will leave something to be desired. Though in person I will happily and proudly discuss my viewpoints on that matter, that is not the purpose of my words here on this page.
In fact, I believe most everything is a choice- and I choose life.
2013 brought me near death time after time. In each of those cases, I was faced with a choice. I could either press in, endure, and see the victory, or I could give up and let go. I won’t lie to you, there were definitely intense storms in which I teetered on the edge, losing the desire to fight. Ultimately, a love for life took the victory each time.
A passion for life and all its beauty is why I am here today. A love for people and the treasure of their hearts is why I am here today. I am here because of a desire for God and glorifying Him in this beautiful world.
But it was a choice.
Was it easy? Absolutely not. Was it painful? In every way. Was it worth it?
Yes, and I would do it all again.
For those of you who know my story, the story of the year of hell on Earth, this probably seems like an absurd statement. Why in the world would I choose to endure the pain and suffering that pushed me to the edge and threatened my life?
The answers are endless, but here are a few:
The pain and suffering I faced stretched me in a way I had yet to experience in my lifetime. When we are stretched, we are grown. The amount of growth I have experienced from the absurd amount of stretching is worth it- and given the chance, I would choose the process all over, for the sake of growth. As Brennan Manning says, “Hope knows that if great trials are avoided, great deeds remain undone and the possibility of growth into greatness of soul is aborted.”
Manning also cleverly states, “What makes a genius? The ability to see. To see what? The butterfly in a caterpillar, the eagle in an egg, the saint in a selfish person, life in death, unity in separation, God in the human and human in God, and suffering as the form in which the incomprehensibility of God himself appears.” In each of my trials, I have seen the mystery of who God is, and that mystery is undeniably transformative. No amount of pain is too great when the prize is the romantic mystery of who God is.
In the same way, no amount of suffering is too great a risk when the reward is the nearness of God. Again and again I will say, He is worth it. I have never been so deeply aware of my own darkness, as well as my deep desperation to dwell in the heart of God, and ultimately, the darkness of my pain and suffering has been responsible for driving me to that place. The nearness of God is my heart’s greatest longing, and I will forever treasure the experiences that pushed me deeper into His embrace.
This only begins to scratch the surface, but even if these were my only reasons, they would be enough.
I choose life and the process it entails, and I will celebrate the journey.
In honor of celebrating life, I had the privilege of going on a fun and incredibly cold photo journey with the very talented Joshua Lewin, with Joshua Lewin Photography. Joshua is a dear friend and highly talented individual. His character is top notch, and his personality is off the charts. I highly recommend Josh in every way- as a photographer, a business consultant, and a reliable friend. Here are some of my favorites from our shoot! It was incredibly difficult to narrow it down, so basically, I didn’t. Please (please please please) check out his work, and recommend him to anyone and everyone you know in the greater Colorado area who may need a photographer! Josh will certainly bring out the best in you!